who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt
who am I,that the Bright and Morning star
would choose to light the way for my ever wandering heart
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Sunday, August 31, 2008, 1:15 AM
Boredom Kills.
If we all say to each other’s faces what we say behind each other’s backs, society would be impossible. Grabee! My grandmother's a real pain in the neck sometimes. She kept insulting visitors. Saying bad words and nasty things right to their faces. She's impossible! After my mom told her "hello" and "Kumusta ka naman lola?" to her, she responded ( in a really mocking tone) " Pangit mo! ". Hahahahha! Grabe. My tummy ached because of excessive laughter. My grandma ended their conversation with " Lumayas ka na dyan! Ayaw na kitang nakikita!". Please do take note that they have nothing, nothing at all, against each other. In other words, it's her natural self. She even said " Mukhang kalabaw to", referring to a fat visitor. me: Ma, dito ka muna. Eto pa ang malupit! Kinalabit ng lola ko yung katabi niya, na sinasabi niyang mukha daw kalabaw. Natakot itong si mamita, baka kung anong masabi ng lola ko, so kinunwentuhan niya ng kinuwentuhan pero mapilit si lola dear, kalabit pa rin ng kalabit dun sa "kalabaw lady" (pardon that). Tapos sabi daw ng lola ko dun sa bisita "Alam mo, ang ganda ganda mo. " NAKANAMAN! Kanina pa lang, sinasabi niyang mukha daw kalabaw. Aba't itong si lola, hindi lang mapangmata, mambobola rin pala? I told you she's impossible. She even regarded her son as "aso". lola dear: ayan! nakikita mo yang nasa banda dun? Anak ko yun. Aso yan. Dinamitan ko lang. Ngayon marunong nang magdamit mag-isa. Grabee siya diba? When the debutant's visitors told my grandma that they are already leaving, she told the "kalabaw lady"... I don't like you. Go out! Sige umalis ka na. Kanina ka pa dian eh. Oo, inglisera yang si lola. Haha. Halos naman sa mga Laresma eh. Pagbigyan na natin, matanda na eh. I can't call that a party. Super boriiing. I offered a little help in the kitchen. Not because I'm a good girl nor I'm trying to impress aunts and uncles because you know, Christmas time is just round the corner and good girls get good bucks. Haha. It's just because I was uber bored that I even wanted to clean the dishes or do something in the kitchen. That's how bored I was. I acted very slowly because I didn't want the job to finish so I wouldn't be idle again because the boredom makes me wanna kill someone, maybe the debutant herself. Kidding. Please pray for my lola. Baka mamaya masaksak yan o kung ano pa man dahil sinabihan niya ang kung sino na mukhang siyang elepante or daga or halimaw. Pity my grandma please. At yung mga makakatanggap ng mga comments niyang di-kanais nais. Friday, August 29, 2008, 5:14 PM
BANG BANG ! BOOOOM.
Kala mo kung anong ginawa ko ano? Haha. Ako'y nagpalagay ng lumalawit-lawit na buhok sa harapan ng aking noo. Kung tawagin sa ingles ay "bangs". Napakatagal kong pinagisipan itong ginawa kong ito. Maraming nagsabing "Oo. Ituloy mo." Ang ilan naman "Wag na. Maganda ka na. " buwahahahhaha. It is supposed to be a "side bangs" only, pero na pasobra ang ginupit kaya....so be it nalang. My classmate kept singing "SHEM BANGS! SHEM BANGS! " I , like any other day, became the butt-of-jokes. Ayan. Hindi tuloy ako nagpa-cheeseburger. buwahahahhahah. juk juk muna . ang sarap magnescafe kapag umuulan noh? Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 11:15 AM
SAILING ON A BULLETIN BOARD?
at ng prokrastinasyon ika nga. ( tama ba?) wuteber. I wasn't able to update for a very very long period of time. gash. and BTW, did you miss me? ah huh? lols. I'm not going to put all the blame on sloth/laziness/procrastination. The making of our church bulletin board and a lot of brainstorming meetings we had play a big role too. We were doing it all day yesterday and yet, we still aren't done. When our church pastor dropped by something and saw us doing the bulletin board ... him: Nanu yan? Gawa caiung bangca? This is why. They ( I'm not against the idea but I didn't agree either ) put 4 big and long kawayan poles in each side. It looked like the board's border but it's actual purpose was to hold and/or support the board. Ayan, nagmukha siyang bintana ng isang nipa hut. It covered the entire half of the wall. Imagine how big it is. Bakit kaya di nalang binarena ano? Hayaan mo na't nag-enjoy sila sa paggawa ng mga kawayan na yun. Asaran to the max. Ako naman, tawa lang ng tawa. Di nila ako maasar eh. Takot sila. hehehhe . Because mosty likely, I'm the "ate" of the group. Take note: Bulletin Board lang yan ah. There's this NCAE tomorrow and I'm here sitting comfortably at home instead of being in school and listening to my teachers dictate us about the what abouts and whereabouts of the NCAE. WAPAKS diba? I had a really really bad tummy this morning that's why I missed school today. Again, I'm gonna use "Bahala Na" system and my reliable instinct as well. Pray for me. :) eto ang pamatay:: Pasukan na naman oh kay tulin ng araw. Pasukan na naman tila bakasyon kelan lang. ngayon ay pasukan dapat pasalamatan. Ngayon ay pasukan tayo ay mag awitan. Baon! Baon! Baon na naman muli! Tanging baon nating pinakamimithi! Baon! Baon! Baon na naman muli! Ang allowance naghahari! at eto pa:: sabi nila, ang tamad ko daw. Lagi na lang akong walang ginagawa. Kung alam lang nila! Mahirap gumawa ng wala! Di mo alam kung matatapos ka na o hindi pa. :)) Wednesday, August 20, 2008, 6:47 AM
PAG-ASA...ng mga tamad. xP
i'm starting to love those PAG-ASA people. hihi. o siya. i'll just edit this pag may nangyari nang interesante this day. :) basta! this calls for a dvd marathon.! woooh. oh. that's a no pala. periodicals bukas eh. ah! what a bummer. boooo. poverty of purpose is worse than poverty of purse. Sunday, August 17, 2008, 4:20 PM
LOV3 . love . LOV3
love is when you walk to the other side of the classroom to sharpen your pencil just to see him. And then you realize that your pencil is a ballpen.  inlab ba ako? o gutom lang. Saturday, August 16, 2008, 10:07 AM
PRUNEScess Chraming
and there are TWILIGHT series in the nearest bookstore already. yipee! you know what the downside is? Magkakapera ako sa October pa lang. wapaks. So bale non-sense din naman na meron nang copy ng Twilight. I asked one of the salesladies if reserving for the twilight copy is possible, and that I'm going to pay and get it on October palang, she said no. Reservations are for three-days only. Ngec. But I was relieved to hear her say that there would be copies in October for sure because if ever all of the copies are sold, then they'll order again. Ba't di ko nga naman naiisip yun? The better question is-- may isip nga ba ako? Math time: I opened my bag to get my ballpen. I was shocked to see a bag of prunes instead. "Ah! di naalis ni mama etong prunes nya kahapon sa bag ko. Tikman ko nga." ( though I know how they taste like. haha) Problem was, my classmate saw me eating and so she asked what it is and showed her the bag of prunes. So syempre hingi siya. So syempre hingi din yung iba. So syempre naubos!! What my plan was just to take one because I know what was coming if ever maubos man yung bag ng prunes na yun, and all was ruined kasi nga nakita akong kumakain. eto pa ang nakakatawa::
ironic diba? when you say "lasang ipis", bakit mo nasabing lasang ipis, ibig sabihin nakakain ka na? EEEEEEWW. Nasasabi mong ganun ang lasa without even being able to taste the actual one. So yun. napagalitan talaga ako as in when my mom saw the bag--pruneless. :)) I defended myself (becaesu she was saying that my "katakawan" is going overboard na raw). It told her that it wasn't me who ate all of those prunes, which is true naman. Kahit nga sinabi ko na lunch ko na yun, nanghingi pa rin ang mga PG. ( jocs lang ). Big deal sa nanay ko yun kasi parang gamot na rin nya yung mga yun, ( for being anemic ata?). Siya nga, iniisa-isa nya lang yung mga yun kasi nga 200 plus ata isang bag nun, tapos sa isang iglap inubos ng mga kaklase ko. kumusta naman yun? talaga naman. Kokosensyahin ko sila sa tuesday. PS. to you "slut":: if you're planning to take away everything that's mine.. good luck dear. GOOD LUCK. Wednesday, August 13, 2008, 9:13 PM
once a flirt, ALWAYS A FLIRT.
What a SLUT ! if you think I'm jealous, sorry honey but I'm not. that makes you a loser. act a little demure naman. you're looking like a total trying hard pa- innocent flirt. it's not that I hate you it's just that... i hate you. and please stay at least 1o meters away from him. I'm watching. no, seriously. it's getting more annoying. you really pissed me off. Monday, August 11, 2008, 9:44 AM
the OWSI.
Akala mo kung anong serious matter no? Actually it can or can't be a serious matter.
Until now, I can't get over what she have told me. OC. OC nga ba ako? I dunno. Help me answer that. Am I OC or what? And yes, you, my blogger friends can't answer that since you don't get to be with me in the physical world. So I consider you as exemptions. :) We're just virtual friends here, so you can't tell right? Unless you have this Madam Auring super powers or crystal balls. If in case you do, no thanks. I don't buy such crap. Anyone can put up an image that he wants to portray even if in reality, he's so far, miles far from that. That is why pretentious people so love the cyber world. SAPUL. Sige tamaan ka. hahaha. Maging sino ka man sa dulo ng walang hanggan iisa pa lamang. Lalo na yang sa FS na yan. nakooo. kaya nga, BLOGGING NA LANG. ! hahaha. so back to my question. Am I really, in any way, OC? yes or no? why or why not? galingan sa pagsagot. I'm willing to give away freebies sa may pinakamaganda at sensible na sasagot, kung meron man. Don't cha want a Mcdo treat? Anyone? OK fine. Kung wala edi ako nalang sasagot. eksididi. 1. trulalash 2. eklabush 3. eklabush 4. trulalash 5. trulalash 6. trulalash 7. eklabush 8. trulalash 9. eklabush 1o. eklabush -- batang bading nagsasagot ng true or false na quiz. xD Sunday, August 10, 2008, 10:05 PM
GOTCHA !
no, not the drastic type. Hindi naman yung tipong naglalaslas and all. It's part of being human...blame your emotions that are sometimes uncontrollable and I MUST say unpredictable. woaah! It was the first time ever, that I was able to finish one footlong. Dati pa-half-long half-long lang ako. Tas ngayon. woah. And di pa ko nakuntento. nag-devour pa 'ko ng isang leche flan. YUM YUM . I had ice cream too ! Talk about completely forgetting about diet. DA-YET. hahaha. After Sunday worship service, my mom, out of nowhere suggested that we pay some of our relatives a visit. I was hesistant to go because :: o1.) I will just be doing a lot of sitting and answering the same question older people ask "Anong grade/year mo na?". Parati nalang ganun ang tanong. Why not " Hey, sina Luis at Angel na ba?" or "Are you in a diet? Pumapayat ka eh." or better yet "Nagpa-Belo ka ba?" I would be grateful to hear that. *grins o2.) I'd rather be in front of the computer all day long than sit, doing nothing except for listening to the elders exchanging stories not because you want to, but there's nothing else to do. And even if you don't intend to listen ( remember etiquette rules? ), you can't help it because their voices are so loud like they have these mics in their throats. Grrr. My niece ( who ages 20 years old I think? ) really entertained me the best way she can. Kasi naman, I was like a kid throwing tantrum because I was really bored na. In the first place, it was against my will to go there. My mom just insisted and left me with no choice. So I was blaming her, telling her that " Yan kasi, sabi ko ng wag na 'ko sasama. Ano naman gagawin ko dito? Maghapong tutunganga. " Grabbee. I sounded like I was scolding my mother. hahahaha. Inis na inis na 'ko talaga. And realtives know me. Kapag tahimik na 'ko, may nararamdaman na akong di kanais-nais sa aking katawan -- inis. Hindi po jebs. Boo. One more thing, what they had for lunch was sisig. WADA. ! I don't each sisig. I was really hungry and this is what's for lunch, something I don't even eat? I felt like crying already ( ang babaw no?) . My aunt, knowing that I don't eat such, told me that she'll be treating me anything I want. I agreed. Gutom na eh. So yun. Punta kami sa nearby resto. Upon seeing my order placed in front of me... ( She's the closest aunt to me, next to my Tita Pau. We were like cousins rather than aunt-niece ones. ) me: wow! ang haabaaa! di ko mauubos yan. after a few bites....
since I was really starving, I didn't care anymore. Bahala siya kung sabihin nya man. I was able to finish that one super footlong. YAK. Ang takaw. After eating and some stories, we went back to my niece's house, my nephew pulled a prank on me. him: Tita, gusto mo makakita ng pamatay ng buwaya? me: (perplexed) Oh? him: eto oh. * showed me his older brother's ID me: haha! sumbong kita sa kuya mo. him: *he left. then came back with something on his hand that he was hiding behind him. eto na talaga ang pamatay. me: * i thought he was going to show me his ID this time, but boy! was I fooled. oh ano na naman yan? patingin. him: bwaaaaaaahhhh! * tossed a FREAKIN' FREAKIN' FAKE SNAKE on my face. I shrieked. I really did. Like how flirty or "pampam" girls do. It was a really loud shriek. Good thing hindi ko siya nasuntok or nasipa or did anything brutal to that freshman guy. The elders, who were chatting outside turned and all eyes were on me. As in all. First time in my whole life na gumawa ako ng eksena. Swear. And it was the first time too that I heard myself shriek like that. Dyahe. At least napatunayan ko na babae pala ako. Na marunong pala akong tumili if triggered. wahaha. that wasn't the end yet. and i'm saving it for tomorrow's post. :) it needs extra attention. hahaha Saturday, August 9, 2008, 11:12 AM
HOW I HATE TIME !
I wish this date was taken off the calendar. I loathe this day. for I lost a sister. no. don't dare utter condolence or say words of comfort. it still won't ease the pain. let me be. just let me be. please don't walk away like this. I might not carry on. Friday, August 8, 2008, 7:28 AM
what does my handwriting says?
 Shem Camille is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. Shem Camille will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. ( super true ) She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Shem Camille an ambivert. Shem Camille is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. ( wahahaa. EMO? ) Shem Camille is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to.  People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shem Camille doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.  Shem Camille is sensitive to criticism about her ideas and philosophies. She will sometimes worry what people will think if she tells them what she believes in. ( super true na naman) This doesn't mean she won't talk, or that she feels ashamed. It merely means she is sensitive to what others think, regarding her beliefs.  Shem Camille is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past. ( whhhhhaaaaaaatt??? )  She has the best of two kinds of minds. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.  Shem Camille's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Shem Camille that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. ( kaya magiingat kayo sa sinasabi sa kin...kasi pinaniniwalaan ko. uto-uto eh.) She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Shem Camille is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Shem Camille's self-concept is artificially low. Shem Camille will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. ( haha! )  Shem Camille exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. She will be a good story teller. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Shem Camille has a vivid imagination.  Shem Camille has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Shem Camille seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Shem Camille seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin. ( niacs. ) if you want your own handwriting analysis.. LINK oh joke muna::: use dedicate in a sentence: Pag ginamitan mo yan ng glue for sure DEDICATE yan. How about continue: -kahapon ang dami dami niyo bakit ngayon ang CONTINUE. How about opinion: -Papasok ka sa pinto kung OPINION. Eh ang conclusion: -syempre di ka naman makakapasok sa pinto CONCLUSION. :)) laugh some more. Thursday, August 7, 2008, 7:42 AM
prince charming
I watched TOP PICKS yesterday and I have a little something to post. Here are the top 10 CLASSIC PINOY EXPRESSIONS :: 1o. Bahala ka! ( bahala ka. oo BAAAHAALAA KAA!) o9. Hanep ! ( hanep naman oh, wala akong almusal?! ) 08. Manigas ka! ( ano? sayo na si JEYGEE? manigas ka! ) :))))) o7. Ma at Pa ( Ma, Pa ... penge baon? ) o6. Charing! ( ang cute cute mo..super.. CHARING ! ) o5. Apir ! ( ay oo. sige.. tusukin natin sa bilbil si CHINCOII tutal walanghiya daw pwet ko..ganun nga. apir ! ) chincoii:: namimiss lang kita.. pis . lab . pis . o4. Naks naman! ( aiiii.... nag-toothbrush sya after 2 months...naks naman! ) 03. Kumusta naman ! ( aii nakoooo. wala pa yung PA ko. Kumusta naman? ) hahahaha o2. Grabe ! (probably the most versatile pinoy expression ) GRABEEEE..ang gwapoooo! o1. Susmaryosep ! ( an expression, an ejaculation and a short prayer rolled into one. ) jeSUSMAriajoSEP. thus the word = susmaryosep. like ape to man, this word has been through evolutions too:: hesusmariajosep susmariosep susmaria asus sus some expressions like WALANJO ! WALASTIK and many more didn't make it to the list. my overused expression in the list would have to be.... "KUMUSTA NAMAN?" check my earlier posts and you'll see. hahaha. what's yours? ps. what's wrong with Deviantart? hanggang tingin na lang ba ako sa aking prince charming? Wednesday, August 6, 2008, 9:50 AM
no more lies. stupid lies.
i missed the first day of intrams. that's no big deal for me yes. (if you have read my earlier post, you know why) eh kaya lang! subalit. datapwat. ngunit. gayunpaman. marami akong dapat ipag-cheer ngayon eh. maraming papabol ang kailangang marinig ang aking "AZA AZA FIGHTING" para sila ay magkaroon ng enerhiyang makapagpapanalo sa kanila. wapaks. ihhh. what disappointed me today was not the fact that I was not allowed to go inside the campus. It was that, I made a big big big mistake. Nakakahiya kay Lord. And I really regret that I did that "thing". Pagkatapos kong gawin yun, nanlambot ako. I said "Sorry Lord" agad. Nakakakonsensya talaga eh. And never ever ko uulitin yun. EVER. I didn't steal or whatsoever you're thinking to that gravity ah. I lied to the guards. I said that Cham and I swapped IDs and blah blah. Ihh. Naiiyak ako talaga. SOORRRY LORD. :( never again. promise. Sunday, August 3, 2008, 7:57 PM
tapos na. tapos na! tapos na ang pasakit. yeaaa UPCAT --pamatay kang talaga. super NOSEBLEED. pramis. so yun. Before we went to the testing place, we bought what supposed to be "brainy food"(is there such thing as that?). What we bought were marshmallows ( you know that I'm a marshmallow baby right? Don't you?), Trolli burgers, Kettle Korn, Polo candy, Hersheys somethingness instead of nuts, chocolates and whateverness. Pagkain ba naman yan ng magte-take ng kakilakilabot na UPCAT? We also bought Gatorade kasi nga diba dapat energy drink instead of taking in plain water. The best part of the day? Janeng and I got 2 TOBLERONEs from Chincooi and the Chocolate Factory. haha! Janell left ahead of us. Chincoii started making pilit (yak. taglish.) that I give her back the other TOBLERONE she gave me. ABA! walang bawian diba? At wag ka! If I wouldn't give her back the chocs she gave me, I'll have to treat her a Chowking Halo-Halo daw. Saan ka pa sa babaeng yun. Peace Chincoii. Peace. Love. Peace. I'm back to normal. "Crushless". "UPCATless". nyahahha. wag na kontra. ah yea! We'll be having our school intramurals next week. and it's the school extra-co that I like the least. You would probably conclude I am not sport-minded. You're right. "maybe you were right and i was wrong but nonetheless this is my final song... about you" -alden acosta |
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Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt.mucho love.  LOVES : guitars. TEDDIES - my best sleep buddies. bonbons . pigging-out... I mean eating out, of course. :)) cracking the CORNIEST jokes. ICE CREAMS. laughing till my tummy hurts. friends. GOD. LOATHES : the devil - LOSEEER .! liars. "feelers". dull moments. strict school rules. having to be on a diet. arrr. people who don't even TRY to laugh at my jokes. WISHLIST : ( GIMME some love XD ) a DSC-T700 . a lomo cam. yabang pinoy band. a cellular phone. trip tickets to EUROPE. more teddies :) . have guitar and piano lessons. |
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